Yesterday's

6 February 2012

Another sad day

What's a home sweet home when everyone in it is a total jerk

What's love without happiness

3issues that bothers me a lot

first my family

second, my love life

main issue, MYSELF

again and a again and a again

why am i on this earth anyway? i don't deserve to be here. this sucks

why is my freaking life so typically dramatic?

i'm a girl, and i'm super fragile like a glass.

i'm already broken into pieces . i'm dying inside out

if my freaking retarded brother prediction(i'll brk up with my boy "soon") is true,

the main reason is ME.

obviously it's me. i became sad makes him think he doesn't make me happy.

lazy wanna talk to anyone including him, makes him think i'm trying to ignore him

post up stupid fb status makes him uneasy.

and my typical mind thinks he don't care bout me makes me do all of that.

true guys needs space, and hates their girl to control them but wtf! who don't?

when both of us are online and there's a freaking small chance to talk, both of us screwed it. the chatbox is so quiet instead.

both of us can be busy but at least find a time to talk right. i guess?

well i don't know how to love that well anymore i just need my love one to be there for me but when he's not

things can be pretty ugly.

guess that's why i don wanna be in a serious relationship for almost 1year plus and hurt alot of guys in 2010 till february 2011.

NEXT!

i wished i'm the only child sometimes or maybe that old man isn't the head of the house.

if u starded to dislike someone/things you can never like them/it anymore till the day u lie in your beautiful coffin

why the younger ones(age 13 &above) have to be so mean. why can't they understand us, the old ones is in a tough situations?

why need to throw such words to hurt us?

we may be happy and play with them but it'll only last FOR AWHILE

i'll go IN YOUR FACE! when they started to step into my shoes.

not being mean, that's the price they have to pay.

sometimes it's so annoying when i need to care although i don't want to.

cause they're my freaking family.

i can choose to ignore but my heart and mind chose to care. wtf!

wished january incident ended my fucking life

LIFE, UNQUESTIONABLLY SUCK ASS

THE END

I'M A FAKE-The Used

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die;
I'm not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight,
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pygmy sized cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill and spill over and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart.
Love is not like anything,
Especially a fucking knife.

Look at me.
You can tell,
By the way I move and do my hair,
Do you think that it's me?
Or it's not me?
I don't even care.
I'm alive, i don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Do I drink?
Do I date?
I've got perfect placements.
all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes.
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now.
I made sure that I look how I wanted to look.
The people around me,
The people surround me.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

My stomach hurts now,
And all tied off in lace.
I pray, beg for anything to hit me in the face.
And this sickness isn't me.
And I pray to fall from grace.
The last thing I see is feeling.

And I'm telling you I'm a fake,
I'm telling you I'm a fake.
I'm telling you I'm a fake.
I'm telling you I'm a fake.
I'm telling you I'm...

Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Fake!
Fake!
Fake!
Genuine fake!!!

define love if you dare

LOVE

it's a beautiful feeling and word to say.

love makes people happy.

BUT!

.............................................

when curiousity strikes real bad and when the word "doubts" starts to pop out

love can go beauty to ugly.

Everyone is sensitive,

Everyone loves to think overhead

Everyone falls for gossips(depends)

Everyone is a bastard in certain condition

when that everyone wont vanish, "TRUE LOVE" shouldn't exist in people's dictionary.

Why i said so?

Firstly, i've known few people who willing to wait for someone, WHOM ALREADY HAS A BOY/GIRLFRIEND

i go wtf, like serious wtf.

Poet says, There are lots of fish in the sea/roses in this world etc. Why want to suffer yourself with the one who can't love you

Don't they get what the heck does that suppose to mean.

Updating your twitter/fb status with emotional words or lyrics is so pathetic BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO HAVE SOMEONES' SOULMATE

For goodness sake, don't find love, let it find you.

And we can't force love.

If we're rejected, don't stay, it's futile.

JUST MOVE ON!

Secondly, fooling people's feeling.

Giving people false hope is a stupid thing to do.

(this is related to the first one actually)

you got a boy/girl and you found out someone "better" have feelings for you.

You don't freaking let them in and made them stay like stupid people.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS?!

You want that foolish people, BREAK UP!

Lastly, reality love life isn't like fairy tales'

Don't get distracted or don't pollute your mind from retarded romance movies.

You've someone who can love you, then appreciate him/her

You got into a fight and finally every misunderstanding issues is solve, MAKE PEACE

don't make each other suffer, if one of you finally give up and move on then you'll know what's love really meant.

by then everything is too late.

Although i wrote this, i'm not perfect, i can't say i'm every guys dream girl. But this is the fact, love aren't toys.

Stop playing around and be thankful.